I really wanted to do a shoot that expresses both culture and femininity for me … so I thought of a sensual Chinese bride. I wanted to celebrate both my culture and my femininity. I wanted to show other Asian women that they can be beautiful, sensual and sexy … and still noble, strong and smart.
I wanted to combine these two passions and do a shoot that celebrates the Chinese bride. I wanted to celebrate the beauty of Chinese culture and the sensuality of femininity. Here is my view of tradition … with a hint of sexy and wild.
In my mid-20s, I definitely exceeded the limits of my very traditional, very Chinese mother when I showed her my first boudoir photos. She felt so uncomfortable that she could not even look at her and noticed that "they are beautiful, but men in my culture don't like women like that."
I disagree, but even if it were true, I don't care how men think I should or shouldn't look. I did it in my 20s. The older I get, the less I try to stick to social standards … and that's why I feel much more sexy and sensual in my 30s than in my 20s. I firmly believe that sexy is more about the inside than the outside. Sexy is about self-confidence and self-love rather than physical appearance.
The older I get, the more I find my way back to my roots. I feel more comfortable in my skin and want to celebrate the culture I come from.
A Chinese-American model in a boudoir studio photo shoot is not a typical example. Eastern culture tends to prefer modesty when it comes to women, while it is more acceptable to express sexy and sensual in Western culture.
As a Chinese born in America, I never really felt American or Chinese. I have rarely seen Asian representation in the media and I have not felt that my Asian traits fit with society's beauty standards. I grew up so resilient to my culture and history and decided to celebrate femininity – something I still love to keep in my work.
Interested in a boudoir shoot? I would love to hear from you!